Dear Sweet Friend,
Yes, I left my former husband of 34 years, last year in January. It’s been over a year and a half. He’s a good man but I had to leave him. I was enabling his belief that he was not worthy of creating a life for himself. He was stuck on the couch watching NCIS.
It was the hardest decision of my life. But as it turns out it was the wisest I’d ever made. If you truly love someone, you want what’s best for that person. I had to let go of my ego which was telling me to stay, and listen to my heart, which knew the truth. I had to believe that my leaving would allow him to find his own happiness and not rely on me to be his happiness.
Within 10 months of my leaving, he landed a job. He packed up his things and moved to the state of Washington. He’s now running a company whose mission is to place disabled adults into the job market through vocational training. It’s the most beautiful position of responsibility, compassion and growth, and I can see that he’s finding his self worth, and loving what he’s doing for himself and others. He’s no longer on the couch.
After ten years of serious struggles, he and I were able to discover love, self-love, compassion, forgiveness and healing. We talk, email and text. The kids support us both, and are committed to family gatherings and family love. Love doesn’t end, but it does transform. He and I no longer love each other as husband and wife, but we do love each other as close friends, and always as the parents of our sweet children. I will always be grateful for the life and children he and I created together.