“Dedicating some time to meditation is a meaningful expression of caring for yourself that can help you move through the mire of feeling unworthy of recovery. As your mind grows quieter and more spacious, you can begin to see self-defeating thought patterns for what they are, and open up to other, more positive options.” – susan salzburg
yes, i’m blessed to be in nyc helping with the care of odin while ren returns to work. every minute with him is such joy and bliss. in the meantime, my mom is in california dealing with the devastating disease of parkinson’s. there is no way that i can be in two places at the same time. i could stress about it, and feel guilty and listen to the voice that tells me that i’m being selfish, or i can meditate.
we all have situations that require that we let go of trying to control if we are to find any peace in our lives. and we each have different ways of ‘letting go’. when i meditate, i allow myself to see the fear, acknowledge the emotion, but then release the emotion, instead of holding it in and choosing to suffer.
as i think about my mom and the condition she’s in, and the fact that i can’t be by her side, i begin my meditation with gratitude for babies and all they bring into this world. i find myself in a new beginning and i accept that my mom understands, and knows that my heart is with her.